Clarity. Some search for it & others run like hell.
Moments of clarity are needed even for those that aren’t addicted by design. Moments of clarity are found when we can see clearly…. when our senses are not dull. We spend so much time using whatever we can to dull what we feel. How can we ever enjoy true bliss or experience gut-wrenching pain if we buffer ourselves? If we don’t feel these emotions, and I mean feel them to our very core, we miss out on so many. We also risk missing out on the lessons that life is trying to teach.
Pain and Joy both teach, mold and transform us into something else. Something better. Something new. Something evolved.
My drinking was an external manifestation of an internal imbalance. Over time, the need became biological. Now, the craving is but a memory. Not the type of memory that you put in a scrapbook or a diary… thinking that maybe… someday… you will look back and reflect. The craving needs to be a memory that is framed and housed in a place that you see every single day. Not as a reminder of shame… but as a reminder of survival and a beacon on the journey to thrive.
Without clarity… my recovery would be lost. The clouds in my coffee would pull me under and I would drown. It’s just that simple. Continue down a path towards being aware… towards being awake… and eventually… we will arrive at the point where we are truly alive.