“Woman Injured In Blaze” The journey beyond a small town newspaper headline. March 23, 2007 started off like every other day had for as long as I cared to remember, with one exception. Two days prior Friday the 23rd, I knew that I had to stop drinking. Let me clarify… not to stop drinking completely […]
Life Happens ~ Wear A Helmet
I believe it was Ferris Bueller who said “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.” Granted all of life can be summed up by John Hughes quotes… but this one just kinda flew into my head this evening. See… I have the plague. […]
Welcome To Normalville – Population – One Woman In Recovery
I was going to title this ‘Holy Shit, I’m going to outlive my parents!’ But this title works too. The concept of time never ceases to amaze me. When I look back… I realize that for 10 years I lived drink to drink… anything else and everything else took second place. Selfish, Self-Seeking, Destructive & […]
Addiction ~ It’s Not A Battle: It’s A Journey
There isn’t a week that passes where I don’t hear the word ‘demon’ in regards to someones battle with addiction. Do the following phrases sound familiar? ‘I have to be stronger than this demon’ ‘One of these days I will beat this demon’ ‘Once I am free from this demon, my life will be perfect’ […]
Free Will In Addiction Recovery
A drug is a drug is a drug… the question asked was if “I am just an addict, does that mean that I can still drink alcohol?” While this question always leads to a heavy debate of life experience, personalities and sheer ignorance, my answer to this question would be No. If followed the logic […]
Light & Dark: Finding The Balance
The events that occurred yesterday do not need to be hashed out in graphic detail in order to feel sorrow, anger, pain & grief. The slaughter of innocence isn’t something that the majority of sane individuals can comprehend. It’s messy, it’s violent, it’s dark… and maybe worst of all… it reminds us that pure evil […]
Clouds In My Coffee
Clarity. Some search for it & others run like hell. Moments of clarity are needed even for those that aren’t addicted by design. Moments of clarity are found when we can see clearly…. when our senses are not dull. We spend so much time using whatever we can to dull what we feel. How can […]
It’s All About Perspective ~ Part One
The line between online & real life isn’t as clearly defined as it once was. There really isn’t a black & white when it comes to how our society communicates and how our culture has evolved. In a way, this evolution has a great deal of the ‘human’ out of ‘human interaction’. So many of […]
Here I Go Again
Well boys & girls… it’s been awhile since I’ve done this whole ‘blog’ thing. In truth, it’s been awhile since I’ve written. To clarify, for work I write on a daily basis but I quickly lost my ability or desire to write for me. It just seemed like work & after spending many hours on […]
Awakening
Ever stare in the mirror wishing your reflection had a voice of its own? I’ve spent the past few evenings gazing at my image in the mirror, wishing that my id would speak to me. Unanswered questions, doubt and fear were written all over my face and I couldn’t grasp on to a reason why. […]