I sat down the other day determined to have a conversation with God. I was frustrated because I hadn’t heard from Him in a while and I wanted to know what was up. I had some important prayers that needed to be answered and I was only hearing crickets. No voice, no action, no answered […]
January 17th 2017 Today was a good day. Today I celebrate 8 years of sobriety…. I celebrated by waking up with people in my life who love and accept me just as I am… I celebrated with work that provides…. I celebrated with gratitude in my heart… I celebrated with a daily renewed passion of […]
Today was a good day… the work week ended as per usual…. Me feeling like I did an okay job for the majority of the week and with an end in sight (January 2014), each week gets easier. Emotional detachment does have its benefits. However… it also has its detriments. A few weeks ago my […]
Are You In Or Are You Out? Gotta love the anonymity debate. For years, many addicts and recovering addicts relied heavily on the anonymous nature of traditional 12-step programs. With the increase of technology empowering those addicted and in recovery to have a “voice”, the curtain of anonymity is being dropped. The issue being raised […]
Dear Future Love Of My Life, Even though we haven’t met yet, I have to take a moment to offer a word of caution, before attempting to have a relationship. Trust me, you will thank me in the end. See there’s a slight problem thinking that you can have a fairy tale when you will […]
“Woman Injured In Blaze” The journey beyond a small town newspaper headline. March 23, 2007 started off like every other day had for as long as I cared to remember, with one exception. Two days prior Friday the 23rd, I knew that I had to stop drinking. Let me clarify… not to stop drinking completely […]
I was going to title this ‘Holy Shit, I’m going to outlive my parents!’ But this title works too. The concept of time never ceases to amaze me. When I look back… I realize that for 10 years I lived drink to drink… anything else and everything else took second place. Selfish, Self-Seeking, Destructive & […]
There isn’t a week that passes where I don’t hear the word ‘demon’ in regards to someones battle with addiction. Do the following phrases sound familiar? ‘I have to be stronger than this demon’ ‘One of these days I will beat this demon’ ‘Once I am free from this demon, my life will be perfect’ […]
A drug is a drug is a drug… the question asked was if “I am just an addict, does that mean that I can still drink alcohol?” While this question always leads to a heavy debate of life experience, personalities and sheer ignorance, my answer to this question would be No. If followed the logic […]
Clarity. Some search for it & others run like hell. Moments of clarity are needed even for those that aren’t addicted by design. Moments of clarity are found when we can see clearly…. when our senses are not dull. We spend so much time using whatever we can to dull what we feel. How can […]