I sat down the other day determined to have a conversation with God. I was frustrated because I hadn’t heard from Him in a while and I wanted to know what was up. I had some important prayers that needed to be answered and I was only hearing crickets. No voice, no action, no answered […]
When the name Jesus enters a conversation about recovery or a conversation with someone in recovery, one of three things happens: People get irritated, angry and even irate. They are adamant that Christianity will be shoved down their throat and that I’m on a mission to convert them and save their soul. They offer a […]
It’s been way too long since I’ve written on a regular basis… this is the first complete piece I’ve written in years. I’m not a huge fan of sharing my own story… and since I always do things a bit backward… I am starting in the middle. The middle was my rock bottom. I thought I […]
I was going to title this ‘Holy Shit, I’m going to outlive my parents!’ But this title works too. The concept of time never ceases to amaze me. When I look back… I realize that for 10 years I lived drink to drink… anything else and everything else took second place. Selfish, Self-Seeking, Destructive & […]
There isn’t a week that passes where I don’t hear the word ‘demon’ in regards to someones battle with addiction. Do the following phrases sound familiar? ‘I have to be stronger than this demon’ ‘One of these days I will beat this demon’ ‘Once I am free from this demon, my life will be perfect’ […]
A drug is a drug is a drug… the question asked was if “I am just an addict, does that mean that I can still drink alcohol?” While this question always leads to a heavy debate of life experience, personalities and sheer ignorance, my answer to this question would be No. If followed the logic […]
Clarity. Some search for it & others run like hell. Moments of clarity are needed even for those that aren’t addicted by design. Moments of clarity are found when we can see clearly…. when our senses are not dull. We spend so much time using whatever we can to dull what we feel. How can […]
Recently I have seen a lot of forum topics and headlines discussing mental health and addiction. As someone who is labeled as “dual-diagnosed”, this topic hits close to home. Steadfast supporters sit on both sides of the fence. The group chanting “no meds” rivals the group chanting, “treat the mental illness and the addiction is […]
“redemption will be lost ~ unless I fall to my knees in surrender” ~me This past week I have been on a mission. I have been exploring different platforms and submitting writing samples to anything that caught my eye. My motivation? I wasn’t working an agenda or going after recognition, I was simply curious Would […]
The face of addiction is a trickster. Much like the legendary stories of Coyote, Loki & Crow, addiction takes on many forms. Definition of a trickster: the one given by Lewis Hyde: “trickster is a boundary-crosser” (7). By that, he means that the trickster crosses both physical and social boundaries– the trickster is often a […]